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Im just an 19 year old girl that loves to have fun and do weird things with my crazy ass friends. I experiment a lot and I wish I had certain things. Not all fashionable, my wish list is bigger than what I have. I'm just an average girl that unfortunately, cant get a job AT ALL in my life. fckn fayetteville. Smh. I love my life right now no matter how many times i say I hate it.

Thursday, April 15, 2010

The way I feel...

I wanna scream so loudly.
I feel sad hurt upset bothered....
But I'm not supposed to be madd.
It was november and we wasn't tlkn till january
Why does everything have to happen now
The things are going good but now my life is hell
My heart is pounding and it feels so low
My stomach aches cuz I don't want things to go wrong
I don't want things to change right now
U tell me 21 weeks wasn't that long ago
You claim ur ready for change I didn't kno this came with it.
U didn't kno either how are we gnna put this in our future plans
How can I keep u to myself
You got another girl that gave you wat I wanted to give
You can't be happy when we have one together you'll already been thru the firsts
What can I give u now that's forever and long lasting how can I top that
It hurts so bad to kno this, the things I have to see u happy for that I have to wait patiently
My first
Ur second
You'll always be one step ahead
What is a child going to do to us?
What is she going to do to us?
I don't want it to jeopardize
I'm already leaving in the fall now your having a kid by someone u only messed with once.
Is there anything that I'm doing right
Why are we being put thru so much?
I don't know what to think anymore.
I just wish I haven't heard the news.
But... I'm not supposed to be mad.
This was november not last month.

Jux only one thing that I wish...
(Lord forgive me, even though I dnt believe in u that much, forgive me)

But I pray to god that child is not his.
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2 comments:

  1. Robyn LaticeApril 15, 2010 at 6:29 PM

    Oh my. I'm sure things will work themselves out. With you, him, her, and the child. I'm at a loss for giving advice bc I've never been here. but I only wish the best for the outcome of this situation.

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  2. forever.originalApril 20, 2010 at 12:55 AM

    Thanks. I still wanna know why she waited till she was 5 1/2 months till she told him. Smh.

    Then gonna say she wasnt gonna tell him at first.

    the only thing that crosses my mind is that... she prolly was fckn some other nigga and ended up pregnant by them.

    (cuz my mom was on birth control and used a condom with me and my sister).

    Shit happens.
    Oh well..

    If she still wants him;; she aint gnna get him.

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