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Fayetteville, North Carolina, United States
Im just an 19 year old girl that loves to have fun and do weird things with my crazy ass friends. I experiment a lot and I wish I had certain things. Not all fashionable, my wish list is bigger than what I have. I'm just an average girl that unfortunately, cant get a job AT ALL in my life. fckn fayetteville. Smh. I love my life right now no matter how many times i say I hate it.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

.... One more complaint

I'm really getting tired of the whole "ima call u back" and never do. Brings me back to my december post on self realization. (Which I had reread and I literally did change gradually after I posted that. And my new years resolution. I like it)

"After I realized it, from all the broken promises and the phone calls never received or the text messages never answered" I'm tired of getting my hopes up for a call that I'm never gonna get and its soooo annoying cuz I really want to tlk to him. I don't want to wake him up while he sleep.

What if something was really bothering me? Or if I was put into the hospital. he doesn't hear the phone wen he sleep, so it wud be pointless to call when he aint gnna pick up.

I like to think a lot before I go to sleep (notice my posts r usually sometime early in the am or late at night and midday rarely.)

"I don't know who to trust anymore. I realized that, in order for me to actually get what i want, i need to be patient because things will come to me when its time and the more that i rush into it, the more i have to wait. So im going to be patient. Im going to just listen to everything Kayla told me and hope for the best and think that the guy that im willing to give all of myself to will pop up one day and be willing to wait for me."
Sounds familiar right.

I guess patience is key cuz I feel like charles cud be the one for me besides the phone call issue but that's petty unless an event really did happen like that and I left him a message and he doesn't check it till 10 days later. Which he shud check it cuz I hardly ever leave voicemails anyway.

I miss him rite now as we speak. Lol. But, I'm jux scareddd. If we break up, I dnt know what the hell I would do. My heart would be jux, torn all over the place like thinking about it brings pain. I hate breaking up cuz that's the worse pain possible to feel. It lasts so long, its not like something that will go away after a couple mins that shit would last months years ...... A whole lifetime. Guess u gotta pick whose worth risking that.
--PointBlankk

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