i been feelin like shit lately in the AM

Usually around this time in the morning I be feeling sick to my stomach. All i do is lay down and i feel like i have to throw up. I been feeling like this all week. I dont know what is wrong with me.
Then When i go to the bathroom and sit on the floor waiting for it to come, nothing happens. I mean, my period doesnt come on for a while soo….. its not early symptoms and if it was, i wud be poppin pills cuz of early pains but i dont do that.
•Nauseous
•Eating more than usual
•Sleeping like literally all day everyday to the point, i dont realize i was sleep. like 10 hours than the usual 6 i manage to get.
•Back Pain. Wait, i rule that out because i have always had back pain.
•My tummy feeling weird.
•Emotional. Like, i literally just cried over nothing 2 minutes ago.

Ughh.. im not pregnant. so what the hell can it be. U kno what, ima borrow a couple dollars from my mom when she goes on break. (if i remember to wake up on time.) and buy me a pregnancy test. If i am, ughhh! Y! i changed my mind on kids a long time ago. ima jux go back to the bathroom and sit on the floor. I still dont feel good.

that is my new blog.... i have been MIA for a while now tho. but i think im back.

http://lovesjourneyy.blogspot.com/

Farewell

It is time to end this blog and start my new one. This one represents the old me from 2009 I need one to represent the me for 2010. I mean, I transitioned from the old to the new me. lol.
--PointBlankk

Drama...

he was tlkn bout how the girl threatened him wit child support and that he went to go get a dna test and the baby wasn't his.

And how wen he found that out he was sadd about it and wanted me backkk and asked me if it was too late and I had told him that I had gave him till Monday to call me or else it wud have been too late.

Idk. I love him like seriously. I jux want to slap him.
--PointBlankk

Single

My bf broke up wit me. Y? Idk. I wish I did.
--PointBlankk

Mike jackson wrote...

The worst thing is holdingl onto someone who doesn't want to be held onto. Don't fall for someone unless they're willing to catch u. The thing about falling in love is that if u do it right, u'll never hit the ground. Life is 2 short to be anything but happy. So kiss slowly. Love deeply. Forgive quickly. Take chances & never have regrets. Forget the past but remember what it taught u. Sometimes u just have to smile, pretend that everything's okay, hold back the tears and walk away. If u want to see the rainbow u must go thru the rain. If u want TRUE LOVE you must go thru the pain. Women were made from a man's rib. Not his head to be superior, not his feet to be walked on, but from his side to be equal, from under his arm to be protected and from next to his heart to be loved.
--PointBlankk

Its soooo much to say about her, I dnt even kno where to begin. Its like, able to be one looooooooong phone conversation and I dnt really have anyone to tlk to like that about her cuz she is annoyin and I dnt think she realized that.

She tld me this boy thinks I'm ugly right but idts (I dnt think so) cuz little does she kno I tlk to him everyday txtn and what not and he wanted me to chill but knew I had to bring her along with me so I denied it and she accepted it then gon tell me all he wants to do is fck.

I'm lookin at her like, not all boys are like that. They'll only do that if u let them and ima let u kno the inside scoop, she will fck anybody. I dnt care how much she tries to deny it but guys use her for pussy, money, and head. No lie. And I dnt think she honestly realizes this shit.

So I asked him (the guy that supposedly thinks I'm ugly) about it. Well I told him about it. I tell him everything she does and he was like becuz she was a lame in high school she think that she lost weight and will do anything to make it seem like she was cool.

As far as I know of she fckd around with her "brother" when he had a girl and when he was single and gave him money wenever he asked her to. And then one day, she got a papsmear from the infirmary cuz of her problems right. Guess what! CHLAMYDIA!

And while she took that drink she wasn't supposed to have sex for a week. She complains bout how she cnt do it and when she was with that 31 year old guy 31 with a 10 year old kid. And she couldn't resist having sex so they fckd. This was the second day. WITHOUT a condom so that nigga cuda got It and they fckd around more so she could have caught It back. She dnt know yet till she get another papsmear.

So now she got her check (refund) and she over here thinkin she hot shot and can do whateva she wants and can afford everything and shiit but she is homeless but stays with me. She has no car. She is suspended from school and she expects me to tell my mom that she has nowhere to go. My mom gnna leave her ass out no lie if it comes down to it cuz if she buys another extacy pill ima tell my mom and ima have my mom look cuz I'm not going to do it no more, I told charles and everyone else I'm not touching it becuz I refuse to go thru it all over again. Lol. Its harmful to my body mannn I done scratched myself up and made myself bleed and dmn near killed myself while I was on it. 2WICE. I'm not doin it again.

Idk what ima do with this girl.

She gon ask me if I can pick up her friend and take them to get their tongue pierced. If her friend wanted to go her friend wud get her mom car and take them herself. She a hoe. I dnt usually call noone a hoe but she a hoe. Cuz she sellin herself out to every nigga that she LET fck. Yes, I said LET. Cuz of the fact that she LET them do it and does not understand the word No.

But technically I'm a so called hater wen I voice my opinion. What do u call it?

Cuz I kno the word No. I dnt LET other niggas fck me. I dnt evn give the ones that act like they want me the time of day.

I have a bf that I'm fully committed to. I haven't even thought twice bout cheatin on him.
So seriously, am I a so-called hater?

--PointBlankk