Complicating...

So Yesterday was a chill day for me. It was in one word, interesting. I had a good day. I woke up, mom was gone. House was colllllld. Like really cold, Something is wrong with our heat. "Gas Heat", cant stand it. So, When she left from her lunch break, I asked when she was coming back. So i left, I went to my friend house. Not giving hints on this one. If he reads this, then he knows who im talking about. So, we chilled and watched a movie. I dont really remember the movie name. Ill think of it as I write. So, we was just laying together. Not really doing anything. Yes, I really do like this guy and I was off my ( .... ] and I really wanted it but, I said no and just felt like bothering him in that way cuz i wanted to know how big he was. lol. But it took forever cuz he kept hiding it. I already knew he was, i just wanted to kno how big. So, when my mom called and i got up I actually seen it. I mean, yea. lol I was thinking big enough and jux laughin inside. I wish they had smileys on this thing but Oh well i guess.

So, i got home. I ate. Then i waited for my mom to come back so i can go to my cousins house. I went to my cousins and was waiting on the txt saying u can come over. Cuz he was obviously acting like he didnt want me to come over but i wanted to tlk to him so yea, I went over there. It was kind of awkward wen i got up there, but after that it was fine.

Then it happened. I mean, like... real quick it jux happened. I mean, im used to it so I wasnt going to be madd at him for something like that. ( im not going to be real specific ]. It obviously wasnt meant to happen and I liked him, I won't be madd at nothing stupid like that. Not unless it happened everytime then i'll be upset cuz then i'll think its something wrong with me ( which its not lol ] so yea. We jux laid together...

I hate for Friday to come, cuz then i dnt think i can find a way to go see him. Life sucks wen u dnt have a car. It really does. DMN COLLEGE! but at least i get to go out all the time like i used to.


&& another thing. My mom has a facebook. She been sending Requests to everyone lol.  Except me. IM afraid that if i add her. She would read this blog and drill me about it. Which is why i wont post specific names and stuff && she would fuss me out about my wall posts. U know everyone can read ya shit. I just wont add her. I REFUSE.

But i guess life is life.... Hopefully i get the car tonight.... and other nights.

Only question i keep asking myself  is....

If me and him will ever be together?

If its a no. i dnt mind. if its a yes. lol i really dnt mind.

Its jux.... The whole deploying thing. But at least i can see him before he deploys and i can always be there for him. Ya kno.