I never realized how it wud feel to be so alone after ur thru with a relationship. No, I'm not single but if I jux sit here and think bout how I have acted the 4 weeks I last seen my boyfriend you would have thought I was single and I really felt like I lost him to some other girl but now I realize the whole, "you can't trust no one but yourself" issue.

I'm not going to take people's advice in my own relationship. I feel like I am bug enuff to handle my own problems. Of course we don't talk as much as we could but at least he makes me happy. With what he told me tonight, I'm gladd I have him cuz I kno he is happy to have me.

Some people say, "u dnt kno what u have till its gone" idk but I know he really tryin to get it together for himself and he really wants to take this big step with me. Which is where my trust starts to end becuz while I'm at winston salem and he has that kid in august a week after I leave. Idk if he gnna be like "let's make this relationship work and blahblahblah" I'm jealous. He is the only bf I had that really has made me happy.

He tld me bout his sister and her bby daddy with their kid and how he said he cnt help but think about me but when I think of kids I think of ol girl and her pregnant belly.

But, if its meant to be then its meant to be. I'm really glad he is ok. I think I wud have went crazy if something wud have happened to him.

Never have I ever felt this way about someone before. Ever. First time for everything.
--PointBlankk