Shit aint worth it

I feel like I done been betrayed. She (my roommate] wants me to go with her to chill with Don (the boy that threatened to kill her and shit;; stated in one of my wayyyy earlier posts about that drama] and what do you know.  SCHE is in the car so im thinkin, oh hell... they tryin to fck. So i turn around and she turns eme back around saying "Yur gnna leave me here with these two by myself. thats fckd up" and im like UGH! so yea, we in the car and everything is all gudd till we get to the park.

We get to the park and we walking and its pitch dark outside and im scared as hell and i want to leave but I cant leave so when Im ready to go Joy gives me a look and then says, u wanna leave but i dnt want her to ruin her fun so i say im fine and then wen we supposed to play Hide N Seek, knowing im scared I say ok. But what happens.

Her and Don ends up walking to the car leaving me with Sche but Sche was in the bathroom smoking his blunt so basically I was out by myself and Im just standing there thinking about how fckd up that was. I mean, .... Seriously. Ima say im pretty damn good faithful cuz i havent thought about fckn no nigga, havent thought about even saying that I WOULD fck some nigga. The most I would say is that he was cute and thats it. Thats all.

Her on the other hand, im not going to say. Its just a time and a place and just stuff I dont want to hear. (annoyed with that; previous post by the way] and ..... Y LEAVE ME THERE if they been tlkn bout gettin some "butt" the whole dmn time. Most of the time like I think she just dont get it. When you have drama and you let the drama go why bring the drama back in your life? I dont get it. But I cant say nothing cuz look at what im going through but its ok.

I just really wish I had some people to call at this time of night/morning when im in my time of need but i dont because If i was to call Charles if his phone was on. He would most likely be sleep but he a hard sleeper so if i did call he wouldnt hear it so that option is out the window and everyone else i have to txt first to make sure they are up and most of them dont have a car or live near me. Like my best friend Lonnie, or my twin Jordan. Kaleb about 30 mins away and all the other ones are just... far and carless.

I need people with cars. Im tired of feeling worthless sometimes and im tired of that guy txtn me. I swear, How do i file harrassment charges for this cuz i always delete his messages. Shud i save them and go to the police and show them it and see if they can do anything about it?