&& it keeps getting harder

Ohkayy, this is one of the reasons why i wished Charles had a car. But its ok.

His best friend got in a car accident and totalled his car so now I cant ride with him, and I liked riding with him because it was smooth and comfortable and he was cool like, realllll cool. Lol. He was funny to but still. I still got to ride with my babe.

But then, he told me bout his other homeboy going to jail because of "..........................." and I was like wooooow. Like, damn. Nigga gonna be in there for a while. Just, wow. He aint gettin out no time soon unless he lucky and has a good lawyer. Well, he was one of the places we can stay at cuz we aint stayin at his moms (nun wrong with it. I jux want him to be in the same bed as me. not me in his bed and him on his couch lol.) So, now that he did that stunt. I dont even know if we can even stay there.

Then just now I found out his mom (2nd, 3rd, i lost count) done got the car taken cuz they wanted it back like, seriously what the hell is going on. Are they trying to keep me from seeing my future babe. Like, seriously. We are already talking about the whole me going to Winston Salem issue, now this. I mean, I could stay there wenever i wanted to with no problem but its the fact that i wont have a way home. Im not able to drive down there my mom wudd kickkk my ass. She already done cussed me out over her car going down there.

*thank god she aint find out about the speeding ticket Joy got in her car*

and then he said that his homeboy Stokes gets out of Jail soon but idk if that nigga has a car or not and it would be reallllllll awkward meeting him. I think I would have to like, back off from him because of him just getting out, him and charles might need some time to hang out and catch up even tho they visit him and jail a lot but still. A lot of shits been happening lately this month, and I dont want us to end up breaking up cuz of lackk of contact of seeing each other cuz trust me, shit i went thru wit Stacy wen it came to that, I can wait. As long as when I see him, is welllll worth the wait.

*not this time cuz my..... yea and then his cousin..... mmmm yea. like i said not this time but soon enough.*

I can just feel his hugs now and his hair and, ... ughh pisses me off wont send me no pics of his hair. Ima be sooo mad if the lady dreaded his hair and its ugly like i would freak out and jux.... ugh. but i dont care. its how he likes it, as long as he dont look like rick james cuz this nigga tlkn bout some of them hangin in the front of his head.

*shakes head and laughs*

UGHHHH! I cant wait.

J. Holiday's Fatal is playing.

Story of my life.

"Everyday ur gone.its killin me to be without u. Cant make it alone all cuz im missing u.

Its like i gotta hangover, I cant get you out of my head."